Growing up

After so-so birthdays, I soon discovered that I wasn't a huge fan of growing old. The years seem to be passing way too quickly and I for one am not very thrilled about that.

I think that's mostly because sometimes, at least this is the case for me, some of the goals we had/have for ourselves haven't materialized or because things don't always go as planned. Now I'm not saying I'm not crazy about my life as it is because trust me I really am.....it just seems though that as I grow older, there are certain things I haven't done yet which I really wanted to cross off my bucket list and now it seems as if I might not be able to (back packing through Europe anyone?). Factor in responsibilities, work etc etc and some things just don't seem very realistic.

Now, although I'm not a fan of growing old, I feel completely different about growing up *insert big stupid smile here*. To me growing up has been quite an experience. What I mean here by growing up is being responsible for yourself. Whether its after you join university or get a job and go live by yourself, just being responsible for your own being and having only yourself to answer to.

I left home as soon as I finished college but I still wasn't living by myself until two years later when I got my first apartment. That's when I first got to experience 'growing up'. Don't get me wrong, I am in no way saying that living at home or with relatives is not growing up, I am simply saying that for me, that's when I felt like a grown-up.

The experience has been amazing! It honestly gets better with time and I love every minute of it. The freedom I have to do as I please, no rules to follow (no that does not mean I live like a cave man with no regard to anything, although the perks of it are if you want to live like a cave man there is nothing and no one stopping you from doing so lol).

I love the fact that I make my own rules, do as I please and get to have my personal space. I'm always looking forward to going home and getting to selfishly spend me-time, a glass of wine or a cup of coffee, a book in hand, walking around, laying on the floor, just doing as I please. I have gone from having urges to go out every other weekend starting Fridays to looking forward to going back home and staying in most of the weekend.

My favorite part in all this 'growing up' business is you get to design the life you want, do what you want when you want to. Your life is literally in your hands. 

All in all, the whole 'growing up' experience has, for me and I'm sure that is the case for most of you, been amazing so far. Of course sometimes I miss being a kid, dependent on others with no responsibilities other than making sure my room is clean, eat my veggies etc, don't we all though every now and then? There are certainly some things I miss about my childhood and sometimes don't enjoy as a grow-up (lets be honest, its usually in the responsibilities area).

I do realize getting old and being a grown-up go hand in hand but sometimes I wish I could have my cake and eat it too.

Anne xo